Already

Maybe, just maybe,
I’ve found someone.
Someone so right for me,
that it seems impossible to me.
Someone who speaks
the language I’ve only written,
I’ve only dreamed.
She says all the right things.
She seems to recognize me
and accept me,
even want me.
She reaches out to the many me’s
And pulls me in,
The one me that I believe in.
But this relationship is so young,
and what I feel, so old.
I must wait.
I’ve said the words so few times
In my life
and meant them, even less.
Now when I feel so much,
want to say so much,
I count the days
we are together,
and chart the course,
look to the date,
when I can finally say
I love you.
and she will believe it.
Even though I feel
she knows it already.