The longest love

It’s just a guess but I think
We all have someone in our past
That we loved
And wanted very much
To feel their love.
But it didn’t happen
For a myriad of reasons.
Love is so simple
And selfish.
We mostly only see it
Through our own eyes.
If it’s not reciprocated,
Does it disappear?
No.
We feel it as long as we do.
The only Unlove potion
Is time.
The first and truest love
I felt
Lasted 20 years.
Absence drives the heart
Insane
And I saw her so little
Across so many years
That I could never give up
The love
Or the hope
That I might feel hers.
But when I saw her again
For the first time in 20 years,
She was so different
I lost every feeling
I had for her
And saw a stranger.
So discouraging
To have sunk so much
Of my heart
For so long
Into someone
Who didn’t want it.
Now I began to wonder
If I am too old for love.
I don’t have the energy
Or the dedication
I had when I was younger.
Then I was a romantic.
Now I’m a realist
And romance
Has become a fantasy.