Enola alone

There’ve been so many times
I’ve lost my sight,
This is just another one.
I think I’ll be alright.
My eyes are open wide.
How long have I been gone?
Do you see my life?
It just hurries by…
I want to slow it down.
I have to find control
Before I grow too old
Or I’ll never grow at all.
This time I really tried
To make it right.
Where did I go wrong?
You see, the love was there.
It was everywhere.
How can it be gone?
She took me in
And loved me, then
I went away awhile.
I guess I closed my eyes.
Now I realize
I was gone too long.
What she couldn’t see
When she looked for me
Was I was with her all the while.
She inspired me
To fight through ennui.
I thought my fight was done.
My friends say shake it off,
But I’m at a loss
And that loss is no one’s gain.
Now I close my eyes
And fantasize.
I drift away again.
Just let me go.
Its all I know.
Its how I stop the pain.