Have I ever been in love?

I wonder.
Christine at ten
Was so beautiful
And eventually,
So distant.
so many wasted tears.
Beatrice at sixteen
Was so beautiful
And eventually,
So different.
So many wasted poems.
Zoe at eighteen
Was so beautiful
And eventually,
So disappointing.
So many wasted moments.
Deb at twenty
Was so beautiful
And eventually,
So hurt.
So many wasted actions.
Karen at twenty four,
Was so beautiful,
And eventually,
So demanding.
So many wasted plans.
Minnie at twenty seven
Was so beautiful
And eventually,
So surprised.
So many wasted feelings.
Stacy at twenty nine,
Was so beautiful,
And eventually,
So erratic.
So many wasted emotions.
Stephanie at thirty two
Was so beautiful,
And eventually,
So decisive.
So many wasted compromises.
Rachel at thirty four
Was so beautiful,
And eventually,
So strange.
So many wasted opportunities.
Jesse at thirty six
Was so beautiful,
And eventually,
So mad.
So many wasted arguments.
Dana at thirty nine
Was so beautiful,
And eventually,
So young.
So many wasted advances.
Have I ever been in love?
No.