Unexpected

if i run into you unexpectedly,
sitting at a bar
or buying coffee,
i'll say, "its been too long"
or "you look great"
if i can speak at all.
i won't add up the years
to use against you
like a conversation club.
i'll look at you,
really look at you,
and do my best to make you smile.
if you're better than ever
or even really good,
i'll walk away again.
but if you're only "ok"
or "not too bad,"
i'll ask you why.
if you give me any room
i will move in and love you.
if you say, "its been awhile"
or "i missed you."
i don't know what i'll do.
you always looked great
and I never saw you at your best.