Down

I’ve been feeling down lately.
Not really depressed
Or so I tell myself.
Down is ok.
It tempers the spirit
And adjusts focus.
Depression is worse.
It kills the spirits
And scatters focus.
Depression is a cave
At the back of the mind
And I am at worst
Only halfway there.
Still the days are gray.
its hard to rise
and find focus.
I struggle to stay where I am.
I want to improve.
I want to smile and laugh.
I take my meds
And plod through the day.
Am I better today?
I ask myself.
Or worse?
I am down.
But not too far
I hope.
I stumble through my day
And hope the next
Will be better.
I am down,
But I have been depressed
And I’m not there yet.